My Hands

You thought you found the best person in me and I thought the same about you. We had those around us who felt differently, but I didn’t care. I loved you for who you were and no one was able to ruin that for me. Through the good times and bad, I was there for you. I put myself second before you. I was determined to be the best significant other I could be to you because I felt you would do the same for me. You loved me right? I know you didn’t show it in the greatest of ways but I didn’t care. I took you at your word. You didn’t try to break me. You didn’t betray my trust. You showed me that you were committed. I couldn’t be upset with that. We were going the distance, I knew we were. However, as time went on, I began to doubt your intentions. You haven’t given me a reason to question your loyalty but I felt your heart wasn’t in it. And because I gave you so much of mine, I started to feel the same way. I won’t give up on you. We are going through it right now but we will see this to its end. I will continue to pull for what can be with us. For the sake of love I’ll hold on. My hands are bruised, bloody, and broken.

Don’t you see them? Don’t you see what I am fighting for? I was convinced we wanted the same things in life. Rather than taking what you did and what you said for what it was, I looked for a deeper meaning. The reality of you did not match the fantasy I wanted to be. I was wrong. Dead. Wrong. But I won’t say you were a waste of time or a mistake. You are a lesson that I will take with me as I go on about my life. I don’t think I will ever learn to understand your motives or the reasons behind your choices, and I don’t think I will ever want to. I don’t need you. I don’t need this. All this time I was holding on for something more but I stopped because you pulled away from me. My hands are bruised, bloody, and broken…

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